This is a quote from one of my favorite books of all time, The Valley of Vision: A Collection of Puritan Prayers and Devotions. It's a staple read for my wandering mind and often-anxious heart. (You can get it here. It's a great way to pray on those days where your mind is just to scattered to even form a thought.)
I was chewing on this as the New Year approached, while we were at IndyCC, Cru's winter conference for the Great Lakes Region. There is so much about our future that just seems so far out of our control, something that is very hard for this "doer-and-planner" type-A gal to accept. I have the uncanny ability to think of, and then fret over, every single possible future scenario. ANXIETY GIRL! ABLE TO JUMP TO WILD CONCLUSIONS IN A SINGLE BOUND! I can turn worry into an art form, friends. It really is impressive.
As 2015 crept forward, and my anxiety mounted, I recalled a line from an old hymn.
I know WHO holds tomorrow. As in, I know Him. As a friend. As a brother. As a father. If I take the time to fully realize what this means, all my anxieties will fade away into something laughable. I mean, I quite literally "know a guy." And He knows me.
We so easily understand how knowing the right people can help us get what we need on earth, but struggle to understand that knowing the one who own EVERYTHING means the same thing - I will always get what I need.*
I KNOW the person who holds tomorrow. I can ask Him for what I need. And I know that He will be right there with me today, tomorrow, and the day after that, assuring my future just as much as He has my past.
I really don't know what 2015 holds, or even tomorrow for that matter. But I intimately know the One who does, and that is something in which to rest easy.
*When I say I will always get what I need, please know that I truly mean what I NEED, according to God's will. I'm not Prosperity Gospel proponent, but I do truly believe that God will give us what we need in order to best sanctify our souls and turn our hearts towards Him. Sometimes, that need means He gives us plenty, and sometimes, that need means we experience great lack. But it is always what we NEED. We can trust that. I struggled with this idea for a long time, so if this is something you struggle with, and something you'd like to talk about, please email me!